Monday, February 27, 2006

todae...for the first tym i tried my best to remember all the important notes for social studies test...hehe...haiz...very tired lao...:(...i todae look for him...my luv..but he not around...i tink he sick or very lazy to go to skool...i really miss him...i got his pic printed out...haha...i dunnoe y i need his pic but i juz luv him and he is my dearest sweetheart....
do u noe y at tyms..at a point of our lives..we feel tat we hate the person but we luv him dearly??..i really tink tat i luv him but i hate him for hurting me..he toyed wif my feeling... he gif me hopeless hope...he made me fall in luv..i never noe wads luv till he came in my life.. but now..he made me scared of falling in luv...y?!...
well...todae i never see him and i feel tat he is out of my life...but tomorrow??..i never noe... wen i can get over him..it makes me feel so stupid!!..i hate him!!!....but y i miss him??..haiz... now i can rest my thoughts and get ready for test tomorrow...
weell...tomorrow..biology common test...erm...*thinking*...eh..can pass??...not sure..but gonna try my best...hehe....urg!!..not gonna but haf to wad....*irritating smile*....ermm.... now...tats all for todae liao!!...gonna go and study...MUZ pass...or else....*piang*....gonna kena skolding by....parents lah!!..bye!!!....(^_^)
Sunday, February 26, 2006

ermm...confusion...hatred..luv...
i reallie miss him..but at times i hate him..todae i create tis blog to let go of my angriness tat i hav existed for daes..i dunnoe if i still luv him or not..should i give up??..now i got a friend tat is so special tat makes me 4got him easier..but i dun wan to fall in luv again..im afraid to ba hurt again..im afraid tat he would hurt me too..i juz wan to get over all tis and start a new life without getting hurt..but how??..how do i start a new life wen he is alwaes infront of me..i see him everywhere..at tyms saw two of them in my images...issit possible to fall in luv wif two guys at same tym..or issit all illusion of luv playing wif my heart..or issit im force to fall in luv out of friendship??
i now hope tat i will find a guy hu trully luvs me and care for me...byez...