its been daes since i last update my blog..its bcoz im fed up coz i culd not get thru my frenster account at home..its realie terrible..i hate it so much..well at least my trusted fren can open my frenster 4 me 2 check update..so smth is wrong wif my com..well gonna bring a 'doctor' 2 check it..hehe..
2mrw is holidae..a long one..so i gonna sleep vry happily 2nyte..but i need 2 do hmwk tats tones in my back..so haf 2 finish up..then my badluck is tat my contact lense cause my eye 2 haf infection..so i gonna wear specs..oh gosh..im realie woried if im gonna b laughed at..but well hope not..
well..juz now p.e tym was fun..its realie fun..got play floor ball and im hitting e air..haha..its realie funny..i cant control tat stupid ting...haha it realie is so stupid lor..but well my fren ridwan managed 2 score a goal and we win against e 4e1..but we played 'well'..haha..gonna practise hard..so tat tis last yr gonna win inter class competition..well its e last yr..so gonna b more sporting la..juz hit wadeva i can hit la..hehe..:p
well next is valantines dae which i spent at home due to my stupid eye infection..i was hoping 2 get a wish frm sum1 but i didnt realie get..i reali miss sum1..i realie do..sum how i wish i can juz 4get evryting tat happen n move on w/o any guys in my life but im now in luv again..not wif e guy tat broken my heart..sum1 else..its e one tat makes me smile alwaes n comfort me wen im in pain..i juz wish its not too late 2 realise wad is a true sum1..hehez..i juz hope deres still place in his heart 4 me..but wadeva it is im gonna try 2 4get luv but luv study..its gonna b hard but gotta try..jiayo!!..hehe..okhe..lame..
now i had 2 go olready..ill update more wen deres ting 2 update..
im so sad..i juz realise tat im gonna leave e skool w/o anyting...ppl leaves e skool wif a gd remembrance 4 e teachers..it seems lyk im gonna leave e skool w/o any remembrance..i juz realise how bad i am..i cant do smth tat has no mistake in it..i juz dunnoe y..i tried my best at tyms but yet it still NOT GOOD ENOUGH1!!..wads correct then??..haish..i juz dun undestand...my mind is corrupted olready..its switching off..:P
2dae sum1 realie makes me so frust..i juz hate tat particular person..i dun tink tat person has e ryte 2 tick me off wen tat person itself is so horrible..doesnt realie come 4 training..doesnt noe hw we suffered, unlyk e others...i cant sae hu..but tat person juz dun haf e ryte 2 critic me n my specs frens..tat person itself dun haf e standard..not here alwaes n still wanna tok much..oooh..i juz hate her..realie...juz now oso kene ticked off my another person..bout respect..n shit stuff...i juz wanna tell tat person..respect is 2 b GAINED!!..NOT DEMAND!!..its useless wen u demand it...i juz feel so horrible 2dae tat i cried again..:(..so paiseh..but i juz hold my anger tat my tears tat ran down my cheek..
but im feeling better..i cant update much..need 2 get ready 4 skool 2mrw..got parents meeting at skool 2mrw and oso bdae party of a cuzen..so gotta go sleep...updating agian soon..
hmph...its daes since i update tis blog of mine.. im so bz tat i dun haf tym 2 do it...oh gosh..wif all e retest tat is all lined up in my schedule..n oso e next blog test tat is coming up..i realie tink im gonna wear out n haf panda eyes...*sigh*..i hate 2 sae tis but its gonna get tougher than tis... but well..im gonna gif all out tis yr..im realie gonna strive 4 e best...so tat i can in2 e course tat i realie wan...i juz dun wanna gif up..but deres 1 big prob..its easy 2 sae but cnfirm..not easy 2 do..im juz wondering how far can i go..how long will i be able 2 bear tis big prob?..im realie getting worried...oh well lets juz wait n c wad r my written fate...=S
well tat daes flag dae went smoothly...its okae la..not tat bad..i went wif ain n waty..since we find tat ang mo kio is crowded wif all those other ppl tat r olso collection money, we decided 2 go toa payoh..well our luck is juz not gd dere..too...so we decided 2 go 2 east..where we think might b juz ask...so we took 28 to bedok..in e bus we three start 2 haf fun n sing..(softly..)our fave indo songs..so we just haf fun...wen we reached dere.. we r all so shocked!!..deres so many ppl tat collect funds dere..oh god!!...we juz hope tat we got some gd place 2 collect..we went 2 eat first then we go 2 collect e funds..we separate..(not tat far frm each other of course..)..then after bout an hour plus we meet again n tis tym 2 go back 2 e ang mo kio flag dae 'hq'...n wait i 4got 2 sae tat on tat sat, it was ain sweet 16 bdae...but we did not celebrate 2gether coz ain will b going 2 watch e s'pore vs m'sia football match...
well tats wad happen on sat..sun was bored..nth much tat happen...actualie nth happen..haha...then on mon was oso boring..deres tis assembly on computer...bla..bla..bla..stayed back 4 malay until so damn late...i was angry wif 2 of my so-called fwens tat dae..they r lyk so e idiotic..i nvr disturbed them n they r lyk disturbing.. n i was like keeping quiet..i juz hate them sum tyms...
wait!!...4got 2 inform u tat 2dae is waty's bdae...she was so cute wif her hair tied 2...lyk barbie doll wif short hair..im so jealous!!..all my good fwens had their sweet 16 bdae...i..haish..*sighing*..3 more mths la...how bad can it b 2 wait tat long...:(..but i haf no choice but wait..so ill wait la...
now i had to go olready!!..got lots of hmwk 2 complete...update soon..if got tym..:P
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hmm...2dae was quite a dae 4 me...its 1 of e dae tat makes me feel so sad and angry wif myself..and oso my fwen...well...tat sadness onie came at the end of the dae...its juz makes me feel so bad and angry..even now..i juz cant stand it...but well ill tell u the gd tings first..so tat ill not feel tat bad...
2dae im gonna go 2 visit nyp...well..its not tat exciting coz i eva went dere..but well ill b looking 4 e course tat im so interested in..its the media entertainment design...wow!..tat course is damn cool...i juz love it...so tats the onie reason im interested in the poly..i tink..;)..tats 4 now la...but then smth else might get me interested in the course..hehe...so at skool im already tinking bout it...but 2daes subject was great...
but well its not tat great after all..the p.t lesson was so damn tough..i didnt participate coz im not well n got an mc 4 it...so i juz watch how my fwen was tortured..it was horrible..i feel so bad tat i didnt join them...i realie2 feel bad...but well..next week ill b playing it...ill b in the torture..yea!!..haha...after tat was recess and lesson carried on...bla..bla..bla...
after skool ended (which was bout 15 mins late..as usual..)..we went straight 2 change 2 pe..our uniform s**!!
haha..but well we had 2 b fast...we then board e bus n go 2 nyp...at nyp we r brought around by our tour guides..i find tat e skool is kinda cool..especially e facilities..vry e high tech...i oso saw tis vry hansem guy... angmoh...meaning mix blood..so damn hansem...haha...
after tat we went 2 eat at mac donald..so damn cheap lor!!...hehe...after eating, some of us went 2 e lounge... one of my fwen was crying coz of this fwen of mine..this fwen of mine got such a bad mouth...but well she reamined calm after a while...we went it 2 play tis soccer game...then...waty and ain played well..wenny oso..but me..i kicked but i didnt scored or lose..guess wad??...my shoe 'fly' frm my feet..ah!!..so paiseh..i wan 2 die la..haha...my fwen decided 2 tell some of our fwen...i was fine...except 4 ltr..
i got disturbed by my chinese guy fwen..i dun mind if its alittle bit..but its getting out of hand..i was burning insyd my heart..i tried 2 keep calm but he was realie getting out of hand..ltr in e bus..deres tis fwen of mine seeing my face sulking..i was realie in such a bad state...he then kolled me wad i hate most..its lyk saying im so action and bitchy...oh my god!!..my heart realie breaks..luckily we reached skool fast n i quickly go 2 my ncc...i then went 2 toilet n cry..i realie feel vry bad..tis guy tat kolled me tis kolled other fwens 2 join in..i feel vry hurt..bcoz tis guy eva bcome my gd fwen..then now, he seems more 2 b lyk my enemy..i dun lyk it but he seems 2 lyk it..he eva lyk spit on me..even wen ive nvr done anyting wrong 2 him..he make me fall..he kolled me names..i juz dunnoe y..he changed frm a respectable guy tat respects his friends..2 a freak, creature tat has no feeling at all...i juz hate him now!...
now im feeling abit better but no wae will i eva 4gif him..not all mistakes culd n 4gotten wif sorie..sorie cant cure a broken heart fren...ok now i realie gotta go..ill updates soon...
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erm..i juz luv these animes..they r so cool n some of them r damn romantic..oh how i wished i had a love tat r so strong lyk tat..i realie wished..hmm..skool was as usual..okae la..not tat bad..not tat good..i juz wished it could have been better.. lyk fun and not tat boring..my life in bartley had been boring..its so bored tat i could fall asleep sometyms..it had been bored since e jokers in my klazz had dropped..klazz is so quiet and much2 serious..my life also bcome lonely since e guy tat i eva luv had already left e skool..its damn bored...tis year will b e year of boredness n stressness..but after tat would b great..i tink..
well yesterdae singing was not bad..not bad at all actualie...i tink we sang better than e npcc..haha..=p..at least it nvr rain..so tat means tat e ncc air cadets had good voice n can bcome future singer..yea!!..tats good news 4 all e ncc air cadets..=D..so now, other than being a soldier, we can b a singer..tats a realie great impprovement..=P..now on tis coming fridae we r gonna sing again..since we've done e first one greatfully, we can do it great e second tym..so sing on ncc air...haha..tats e spirit!!..haha..im being damn lame...=D..
on tis fridae oso my klazz..4E2..will b going 2 visit nan yang poly..im vry looking forward 2 tat..but i actualie looking forward more 2 going 2 ngee ann poly or s'pore poly..ive got afew chosen courses dere..but im cooml in going 2 nan yang..i hope i find some courses tat im interested in tat poly...i hope so......
i got my results 4 my malay and poa blocktest 2dae..im damn happie in getting an A1 4 my poa..a 28 out of 30..tats damn cool!!..im so happie..overjoyed..but my malay results realie sux!!..i failed!!..arg!!..4 e first damn tym i failed..imagine tat..i realie freaked out!!..oh gosh!!..mr asmadi failed me!!..im so angry..im frust!!..oh.. but well ill do better!!..much2 better..i bet u...ohk..i need 2 go now...update again ltr, soon....=)
oh my gosh..i realie want a sweet 16 bdae bash..its so damn fun...its gonna b e most memorable bdae party ever..oh gosh..i realie enjoyed it..thanx za..hahaz...i realie cant wait2 b 16...but i oso dun wan e tym 2 fly pass quickly...(*confusion*..haiz..=S)..its not tat i dun wanna b 16 quick..but its wad i gonna take quick if e tym fly pass.. its e olevel!!..arg!!..juz tinking of tat made me freak out...i want e tym 2 slow down so tat i can study and pass well...ar!!..stress!!..i realie wan 2 change e topic now...bfore my brain gets hay wire...realie...(*smiling*..haha..=P)..
now im tinking of bdae party..hehe..next 3 mths..90daes..haha...well..za's bdae party was awesome!!..realie... and the cakes..evryting...well..ill tell u evry single ting bout it..ohk..i was supposed 2 meet ain and haja..but ain saed tat she gonna b damn late and gonna b send by hilmi..so now i wait 4 haja..tat ltr turn out 2 b late..(*question: am i alwaes on tym??..?*..hehez..)..so i den went 2 buy bubble tea..so tat i can wait 4 them w/o feeling hot..then i met yun ling..coincidentally...i end up going 2 e chalet wif her..and i was lucky..it was raining and we got umbrella..coz of yun..haha..so we went taking a shuttle bus...when we reached dere, we managed 2 find za's chalet and met up wif her..abit 2 early i guess..then it was raining heavily again..then it was cooling down..za saed tat "yea..its cooling down.." but then it started 2 rain heavily again..hahaz...then she saed tat she wont sae it again..after tat jerald, paulina and daryl came..yunling had 2 fetched daryl coz he got no umbrella while paulina and jerald had it...then e ppl coming is inreasing...after them is ain,haja, serene and nurul...after tat i loss track..hehez...e party is getting bigger and bigger...they cut the cake at bout 7 plus...then we got lucky draws...eating..wow!!..tat party was damn great!!..i went home wif yunling, serene, paulina, jerald, daryl and oso nurul..we went at 10..i met ain wif hilmi and dzarif tat was about 2 go home..or find jellyfish..hehe..i met up wif her..and tok wif her 4 awhile...
as i was writing all tis..alot of tings come in my ming..lyk will i wan a party after all??..coz my bdae is near exams..well..let tym tells my fate..now i need 2 go n get ready skool stuff...2mrw dead meat..need 2 sing infront of crowd..arg!!..please dun laugh...hehe..
ps: i dunnoe if i can sing real good..so get ready 2 bring umbrella...and sweater...hehex...
er...its a few daes since i updated tis blog..hehex..2 bz wif blog tests tat juz ended 2dae...so difficult...i tink i need 2 retake some tests coz i cnfirm fail..its 2 hard..well..an example is fnn and bio...hehe 2dae last tests is fnn..its damn hard..1 of the qns is how 2 modify a cake 2 make i t more fibre?..i answered..add banana and papaya..haha..damn stupid la..but i cant tink of anyting else...hehe...well..i juz haf 2 wait 4 e results la...=P.. juz 2 remind myself..i muz pass all these test or else...haiz..i hate 2 sae tis..but its punishment realie2 S**...i realie hate in..u noe y??..we had 2 sit wif our table..our chair..oso e worst ting..we had our own name tag sitting dere at e table..infront of general office...oh my god!!..so paiseh...tats y i realie had 2 pass...=D..
now i tinking of smth else...tinking of my heart...well, its been broken once and its fixed now...i realie noe tat my heart had been fixed but im not sure on how i can move on..whether i can love sum1 again deeply.. whether i would b hurt again..im juz 2 scared and afraid of getting hurt again..i suffered once and i realie doesnt wan 2 suffer it again...i noe its my critical point of life now..olevel..but even wen im studying, i cant avoid tinking of tat sometyms..i noe one person eva sae tat..luv will come by itself..its not 2 b seeked...im trying hard not 2 tink of it..its werking..i hope i can realie 4get bout it 4 now...so i could remain focus on 1 ting...study!..STUDY!!..
ohh..2daes things 4 me is damn hard..firstly is p.e...i had 2 fo 70 pushups...of different types..die!!..i hurt my knee badly..after tat running..then after skool, got p.t in ncc...firstly got games..fun wacko and dog and bone..we are e dogs!!..(woof!!..woof!!..)..haha...after e fun games, we r all screwed!!...we r asked 2 run...then stop...after tat..sit-up and then push-up...sit-up..then push-up...oh my gosh!!..e stomach cramp..(having it now!!..ouch!!)...after tat go home..after noeing tat ive 2 sing during assembly..i wan 2 faint!!..but then go home!!..
now...i at home...juz now i chat wif my fwen..my bestest fwen..we got some mis-communications tat exist long tym ago but nvr said..now its all let out and said 2 each other bout the problems we had...its settled within half hour..ain and me..still kitty (ain) and tweety (me)...still 4eva lyk romeo (me) n juliet (ain)...now..i had 2 go 2 get ready 4 2mrw bdae party..zahara's bdae party...yep..gonna b fun...sweet 16 wad...of course la fun...now i realie had 2 go...gonna updates ssooonnnn....!!!....=P..=D
